He Never Knew I Loved Him

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He Never Knew I Loved Him

Ethan Sinclair is my boss. I’ve been with him for seven years.

I’ve been quietly in love with him for a full seven years, but he seems to know nothing.

Otherwise, why would he insist that I take care of every detail of his engagement party?

People whisper that there’s something going on between Ethan and me.

But it’s just my one-sided crush.

I was knocked flat by a combination of intense work and an unrequited crush—so much so the doctor insisted I be hospitalized.

Ethan Sinclair actually wouldn’t grant me leave. His reason: he needed me, and I owned 0.5% of Sinclair Holdings.

I wanted to tell him off.

But professional standards stopped me. "Mr. Sinclair, I don’t want the shares. Can you cash them out for me?"

He looked up from his files and gave me a "dream on" look. "I’ll cash them out for you when you get married."

"If I never marry in this life, does that mean I never get the chance?"

"I had someone check the stars for you," he said. "You’re meant to have two children. You’ll be a good luck charm for your husband."

Ha!

He finally granted me a week’s leave.

I stayed in the hospital for a week.

What I really wanted was two weeks—to rest my exhausted heart.

I was afraid I might act on impulse and confess to Ethan. Unrequited love is torture; every day I worried I’d lose control and throw myself at him.

I chose to be discharged at noon.

He said that since I’m his chief secretary, I should live close by.

So he arranged for me to live next door—of course, it was his property.

I’d lived there five years, comings and goings side by side.

But we really did live in two separate apartments.

I stepped out of the elevator and bumped right into him and a woman coming out of his unit.

She had big, wavy hair cascading over her shoulders, striking features, immaculate makeup, and a hot figure—undeniably an alluring beauty.

I froze.

Ethan looked at me and froze, too, then raised an eyebrow. "Out of the hospital?"

I snapped back to myself, tamped down the curiosity and hurt, and smiled. "Yes, Mr. Sinclair."

Ethan clearly didn’t want to introduce her.

I could only smile and give a small nod.

The woman returned my nod with a smile.

I could clearly sense a faint sharpness in her eyes—subtle, hidden, the kind you notice when you’ve worked with corporate sirens long enough.

"Since you’re out, hurry up and clean yourself up and come to work," Ethan said, then turned and led her into the elevator.

Even after the doors closed, I stood in the hallway in a daze.

It was the first time I’d seen Ethan bring a woman home.

My heart ached.

Like a tipped-over jar of vinegar—sour, layered with other bitter feelings, tight and suffocating.

Back home, I tried to steady myself and called my deputy. "Mia, anything major happen at the office while I was gone?"

"This morning a new female VP joined the company. She’s a very glamorous woman, huge presence," Mia said.

Could it be her?

She arrived that morning and by noon was already going home with him to sleep? That’s awfully forward.

No sooner had I hung up than another call came in.

I glanced at the screen—Mr. Lang, a former partner of ours, was calling.

I answered immediately. "Mr. Lang, hello."

"Claire Bennett, send me an invitation to Mr. Sinclair’s engagement party. I must attend."

My chest tightened. Engagement?

After I hung up, my heart sank completely. No smile left my face.

I hadn’t known Ethan was getting engaged—an utter humiliation for me as his chief secretary.

I didn’t even know we’d hired a new female VP.

Well, I’m just a secretary, not a decision-maker.

Why would Ethan consult me?

Even though I felt suffocated, I had to keep it in.

Thinking he was getting engaged and that, as chief secretary, I’d have to handle the event—

No. I couldn’t guarantee I’d maintain flawless professionalism at his engagement party. I needed to go back to my hometown for a bit.

I typed a message: Mr. Sinclair, Mr. Lang called asking for an invitation to your engagement party. I don’t know the specifics but haven’t refused. Also, I need one week leave to return to my hometown.

As soon as I sent it, his call came through. "Claire, clever—you even find an excuse to go home to be lazy."

He didn’t deny the engagement.

My emotions tumbled.

"Mr. Sinclair, congratulations are in order. You’re getting engaged?"

"Yes, I’m getting engaged," Ethan said in a low voice. "So I’m busy—don’t complicate things."

My heart dropped into an ice pit.

I had to thank Ethan for years of training that let me still find my voice and seem composed.

"Mr. Sinclair, I really need to go back."

"We’re getting engaged in three days," he said. "Do this: after the engagement party, you can go."

"That soon?" I blurted out.

Then I quickly corrected myself to avoid sounding odd. "I mean—someone of your status shouldn’t have a rushed ceremony."

"It’s just an engagement party, not a wedding," he said, sounding curt and impatient.

"That doesn’t mean it should be sloppy," I replied, matter-of-fact. At his age and with his life decisions, he should understand the importance of marriage.

"So you’ll issue invitations, book the venue, pick gowns, handle logistics and details."

"You haven’t done any of that?" I asked, stunned.

"That’s why I’m having you do it," he said, sounding self-righteous.

Apparently I’m that useful to him. For reasons both practical and emotional, I couldn’t shirk this.

Maybe the more the heart breaks, the faster it learns to let go.

My answer came out: "Okay. I’ll head to the office now."

"Mia, Mr. Sinclair says when you get here go straight to his office," Mia told me the moment I arrived, worried. "How are you feeling? Better?"

"Much better," I smiled.

"Good." Mia whispered in my ear, "The new VP, Ava Harrison, is in there. I just heard—she’s Mr. Sinclair’s fiancée and the engagement is happening soon."

"The new VP?"

I glanced toward Ethan’s office.

"Yes. His fiancée."

Mia looked at me with sympathy. Maybe because I’d been too devoted to Ethan over the years, she suspected I liked him. But I couldn’t show anything. Mia knows me well enough to see through me.

"Got it. You do what you need. I’ll go find him."

I nodded, gathered the documents I’d prepared, and walked into Ethan’s executive office with a smile.

After knocking and getting permission, I entered.

Ethan sat in his big chair. Across from him sat the striking woman who had come from his home this afternoon.

They both turned to look at me.

"Ava, I’m sorry—I’ll be frank. I took leave last week and didn’t know you’d started. Or that you were Mr. Sinclair’s fiancée. That’s negligence on my part. It won’t happen again," I said first, smiling and perfectly composed.

Ava smiled. "It’s okay. I just didn’t let Ethan tell you."

Ethan frowned. "Mia talks too much. Claire, compared to her you’re still better, but she needs some training."

"Understood," I nodded. "Mr. Sinclair, did you call me here for anything urgent?"

"About the party. Do you have any leads?" he asked.

I handed over the list I’d printed before I left the hospital—the banquet halls still available three days out.

"The best hotels in the city—only these three have availability, and only for evening slots. Catering specs and price ranges are noted. You decide the budget."

Ethan paused, glanced at the papers, and glanced at Ava.

Ava also glanced at me.

I kept smiling and handed over a full packet of color-printed options. "For attire, we’ll have to buy off-the-rack due to time. Here are six men’s suits and six women’s gowns. You two can pick. If none work, I’ll get more samples."

"Claire, impressive—such efficiency. We only just learned about the engagement and you’ve prepared all this?" Ava praised.

"As I told you, with Claire on this, there’s nothing to worry about," Ethan told his fiancée.

I was a bit stunned—apparently my position in Ethan’s mind was high; I was practically omnipotent.

"Consider me schooled," Ava said with a loaded smile.

"You’ll see. With Claire around, I worry a lot less. She’s my protector on the journey," Ethan said, flattering me in his own way.

I didn’t need that—he was basically casting me as his warrior monk protecting a naive pilgrim. Ethan a pilgrim? Maybe in looks he could pass. But his exploitative tone was far from kind.

"Mr. Sinclair, Ava, finalize the catering level and approximate number of guests from both sides and pick outfits. I’ll take the results and confirm with vendors, okay?"

"Go on. It’s not urgent," Ethan said.

"Mr. Sinclair, it’s urgent—the venues will be booked by others," I warned.

The only person in the world who’d be this casual about booking his own engagement would be Ethan. I felt a little sorry for Ava—marrying a workaholic takes courage.

Ava, a sharp woman, caught my glance and immediately shot a look at Ethan.

Ethan’s frown deepened as if he were going to a funeral. This wasn’t an engagement—it was a life-or-death deadline.

"Discuss it between you two. I need feedback to give them by 3 p.m. I’m heading out now," I said, and stepped back.

Ethan gave me a look that suggested he wasn’t entirely pleased.

After I left, my energy sagged as if weighted down.

Back at my desk, Mia handed me a cup of warm water. "Claire, your stomach’s sensitive—I didn’t dare give you tea or coffee. Water okay?"

"Perfect," I said and thanked her.

"Don’t be so formal around me," Mia smiled.

"Go to Creative Dept. and prepare the invitation designs—make them distinctive," I said. We needed to start that early.

"Got it. On it," Mia replied.

I’d barely taken a sip of water when Ethan rang the internal line. "Claire, come in."

I set the cup down and went back.

He and Ava were still there. Ethan looked at me and said in a low voice, "Book the venue. Expect about two hundred relatives and friends between both sides. No need to notify other client groups."

I nodded. "Both sides’ relatives—who needs hotel rooms reserved? Mr. Sinclair and Ms. Harrison should give me a list and I’ll book the hotel."

"This is that complicated?"

Ava blinked, then glanced at Ethan.

Ethan looked at me with slight surprise too.

"I’ll ask," I said. "Mr. Sinclair, you’re from out of town—won’t most of your relatives need hotel rooms? How about Ms. Harrison’s side?"

"I’m from out of town too."

"Then they’ll all need rooms."

I did a quick calculation. "Banquet tables seat ten people each for the traditional symbolism of completeness, and most hotel banquet tables are about 1.8 meters—ten per table is the usual setup. We need twenty tables, plus two extra in case more people show up. Is that okay?"

"You handle it."

Ethan said, "Pick my suit."

I turned to Ava at once.

She smiled.

"I have no objections."

"Which dress do you prefer?" I asked.

"This one."

Ava pointed at a picture.

"I’ll take this one, and Ethan can take that."

In the end Ava chose the dress—her prerogative—so I nodded and stepped back.

Things got busy after that. There were a lot of details to finalize for Ethan’s engagement banquet.

That night, dragging my exhausted body, I showed Ethan the electronic invitations I’d designed. He looked genuinely startled.

"Aren’t you supposed to send them?"

"Mr. Sinclair, these are for your and Ms. Harrison’s friends and family. We still have two and a half days—shipping anything faster won’t get paper invitations to everyone in time. You should send the e-invites."

I couldn’t understand why Ethan was rushing the engagement at all.

"Right," he said, nodding. "I’ll send them myself."

I started to leave his office.

"Wait."

"Yes?"

"You’re not looking well. Is your illness really that bad?"

Of all people, the businessman noticed my pale face.

"It’s been bad for a while. You didn’t approve my leave, so I couldn’t rest."

"I thought a week off would be enough," he said, looking me over.

"Clock out. Ride with us after work."

"You guys?"

"Ava is staying at my place," Ethan said. "It’s on the way."

"No, I won’t be a third wheel. Mr. Sinclair, I actually have things to deal with—go ahead without me."

I smiled and refused.

"Stop being dramatic. We used to go together, didn’t we?"

"That was then. This is now."

I smiled again. "Men are simple-minded."

He snorted. "So what—since you live next door, you’re going to move out?"

My stomach tightened. I knew it was time to go.

"I was going to. After your engagement party I’ll move."

"You want to move?" Ethan froze, clearly annoyed. "What about my life?"

"Mr. Sinclair, your life will be handled by your wife. If you prefer me to stay on, I suggest hiring a male secretary—might be more convenient."

"I’m not comfortable with that."

Well, that’s your problem. I can’t spend my life glued to you, can I?

"Get used to it."

Ethan’s brows tightened; he sounded impatient. "No need to move. We’re neighbors, not in the same apartment. What’s the worry?"

He didn’t want me to go. Part of me felt comforted, but most of me felt a sharp ache.

I didn’t want to watch him come and go with his wife every day. I wanted my freedom and my rights.

This argument could wait until after the banquet. There was no point fighting now.

"I’m leaving. Send the invitations."

In the past, whenever Ethan worked overtime I never left early; this time I did. I didn’t want to see him with Ava. It was selfish—but it was my right.

I grabbed a taxi home, showered, changed into pajamas, opened my laptop, and the doorbell rang.

I peeked—Ethan and Ava were standing at my door. Through the peephole Ethan looked remarkably handsome.

I opened the door and plastered on a perfect smile. "Good evening, boss, Mrs. Sinclair."

"This is some congee Ava wanted to bring you. Didn’t you say your stomach’s been bad?" Ethan handed it over.

"Ah, thank you, thank you, I haven’t eaten yet." I took it, flattered. "Thank you, Mrs. Sinclair. Of course—how could the boss think of everything?"

Ava smiled. "Claire, you don’t have to be so formal. You’ve taken such good care of Ethan all these years. I’m grateful."

"It’s my job. Mr. Sinclair puts food on my table; I’ve always treated him like family."

I made sure to distance myself in words. Ethan snorted. "You can call me big brother if you want—no need for ‘dad.’ Am I that old?"

"Saying ‘dad’ shows respect, doesn’t it?"

"I don’t have the patience for this."

Ethan turned and left.

Ava gave me a bright smile. "Men. Don’t take it to heart."

"Thank you, Mrs. Sinclair. If you need anything, just tell me."

I immediately shifted into full-on flattery mode, feeling slightly ashamed of myself inside. Was I afraid she’d see through how much I coveted Ethan? Ha.

Watching them go into the same apartment made my eyes sting, but my face stayed composed. I felt like I deserved an award for acting—but I didn’t want to act anymore.

I barely slept, haunted by images of Ethan and Ava together. After two hours of restless dozing in the small hours, I got up, stared at my bloodshot eyes in the mirror, and tears fell uncontrollably. I looked not only ugly but fragile.

Their engagement party had 220 guests—friends and family from both sides, a few more from Ava’s side. I learned they were high school classmates; she’d been abroad these past years and had just returned. Ava put up a third of Ethan’s startup capital—meaning she owned a third of his company. Ethan’s family didn’t hide any of this; they mentioned it repeatedly at the banquet.

His parents were truly decent—steady and kind. They’d stuck to their principles.

And me? Seven years by Mr. Sinclair’s side, running errands, doing everything—I got 0.5% of the company and acted like it was the world.

Comparing myself to Ava made my chest ache. I felt petty and envious. It hurt.

After the banquet, things got worse.

Ethan’s mother pulled my hand aside. "Claire, you’ve worked hard all these years. You’re talented—a model secretary."

Her words felt like needles. I took them as a pointed reminder to mind my place.

I kept smiling, unconquerable on the outside. "Auntie, you’re too kind. Mr. Sinclair has treated me well—he gave me 0.5% of the company. I work for my own livelihood, it’s not so hard."

Her face stiffened, surprised by my bluntness, and she looked at me a beat longer.

"Don’t worry," I added. "I’ve already found a male secretary for Mr. Sinclair—he’ll be ready soon."

She blinked, then smiled. "Claire, you do things impeccably."

"You’re flattering me, Auntie."

I bowed and found an excuse to slip away.

The next day, after seeing off guests, Ethan and Ava returned to the office. I went to find Ethan immediately.

"Mr. Sinclair, may I take leave to go back to my hometown today?"

"In a few days," he snapped.

I frowned—he was so inflexible. Asking for time off had never been this hard.

Ava happened to come in and overheard. "Ethan, Claire did so much for our engagement. Look at her—she really looks unwell. Let her rest a while."

Ethan finally looked at me, his brow furrowed. "Are you really that sick?"

I nodded quickly. "Yes, Mr. Sinclair. You promised before—if possible, I’d like a month."

"A month?"

"Ethan, a month isn’t too much. Claire’s worked nonstop for years. Now I’m back and can help take some load off him. Let Claire go home and rest for a month."

I blinked and immediately thanked her.

"Thanks to Mrs. Sinclair for considering the staff. Mr. Sinclair, please agree. I really need this."

"A month," Ethan said after another look. "Approved."

It seemed Ava’s words carried weight.

I thanked him and packed to go home.

There wasn’t much going on at home—I just hadn’t visited in years. I planned to spend some time with my parents. But my mom immediately began nagging about marriage.

"You’re twenty-nine, almost thirty. After thirty you’d be an old mother. You’re still single after all these years—do you have any idea how worried I am? Raising you felt like a curse!"

"All your childhood friends have two or three kids. Look at you—you’ve burned yourself out into an old maid. Who would want you now? At thirty, you’ll be lucky to find a divorced guy."

After three days I escaped; I couldn’t take the matchmaking pressure. My mom set up ten blind dates in three days. It was more exhausting than work. I bought a ticket and went traveling—first stop, Portland.

No sooner had I landed than my phone rang. It was Ethan.

"Where did you put my tie?"

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