I Reborn as the Villainess and Survived

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I Reborn as the Villainess and Survived

Claire Bennett โ€” I woke up inside a sicko romance as the villainous side character.

The moment I was transported, the male lead was in the middle of chopping someone.

The stench of blood hung heavy in the air. The sound of the cleaver biting through flesh was disturbingly like cutting ribs.

In the dungeons beneath West Manor, scattered corpses lay everywhere โ€” and there I was, the vicious secondary consort: Hazel Bennett.

At a scene like this, I didn’t want to be poetic. I just wanted to dieโ€”quickly.

In the original book, Hazel Bennett died right here. Lucky her. She died, and I woke up inside her!

Duke Nathaniel Westโ€”Nathan Westโ€”watched me come back to consciousness and barked, "Ethan." Ethan was his covert guard, the executioner in this moment. A duke wouldn’t dirty his own hands for an execution, of course.

He was just here to watch them butcher someone.

Ethan wiped the blade with a handkerchief so stained its original color was gone, then gripped the greatsword and walked toward me.

The sword dragged on the ground with a grating scrape.

I slumped, only seeing the hem of the boy’s black robe glint with silver.

Ethan’s steps were steady as he approached, expressionless, as if the pile of bodies around him weren’t the result of his handiwork.

The corpses at his feet were two of Hazel’s maidsโ€”faces unrecognizable.

If I hadn’t read the novel, I couldn’t have told whether those lying on the ground were men or women.

Duke Nathaniel loved his wife, Eleanor Grant, with an obsessive depth. She miscarried, and he went on a slaughtering rampage to find the culpritโ€”turned the whole West Manor upside down.

The culprit was cruel but cowardly.

Seeing her own maids mutilated so horribly, Hazel had the sense to scare herself to deathโ€”easy way out.

I wasn’t that cowardly!

I crashed to my knees with a thud. "Duke, have mercy! It wasn’t me." When it’s time to beg, beg. Face a tiger with composure.

That crime was Hazel’s doing. There was no way I would take punishment for her.

Nathan pressed his temple with two fingers. "What evidence do you have that you didn’t do it?" Damn.

What evidence do you have that I did it?

"Uhโ€ฆ I don’t know medicine. I couldn’t have caused Lady Eleanor’s miscarriage." In the book, Hazel poisoned Eleanorโ€”expertlyโ€”so Nathan only suspected her; he had no proof.

There were so many corpses on the ground. Nathan looked tired of this whole killing-show. Maybe if I wrangled a little more, he’d spare me?

"Ethan, do it." Nathan’s impatience showed. He didn’t care about my life.

Ethan tossed the greatsword aside and drew a razor-sharp dagger.

Hands rose and fell, and I was exposed before two men.

Goddamn!

They had to humiliate me before killing me?

Nathan was a twisted, terminally obsessed sadistโ€”his world consisted only of Lady Eleanor. Ethan, young but icy-blooded, always overfulfilled whatever orders Nathan gave.

Like now: he produced an iron ball studded with spikes and hurled it at my belly, lodging it into my taut abdomen.

Blood welled up on my smooth, pale skin.

I doubled over in pain, trembling to pry it out. Before I could, another spiky ball came flying.

"Ugh!" I staggered back, stepping on a severed hand, twisted my ankle, and fell to the side.

"Hazel, will you confess?" Nathan stalked closer; the dim candlelight swallowed him. I could barely see through tears. Only his eyes were clear and devoid of feelingโ€”like a killing machine.

I shook my head. "It wasn’t me." I couldn’t admit itโ€”admit and I’d be finished.

"Fine. No more trouble." Hearing him say that, I let out a breath of relief. Maybe I’d gotten away with it.

Nathan turned and ordered Ethan, "Use the curse bug."

My mind froze. Ethan produced a small box from his sleeve. I swallowed, dazed.

The legendary curse-bug that made life worse than deathโ€ฆdamn it.

Why did I have to transmigrate into the villainess instead of the heroine?

And why did I arrive at the exact moment the villainess had already committed the crucial crime? No choice at all!

Ethan didn’t hesitateโ€”one hand clamped my face, the other forced the bug into my mouth.

My resistance was pathetic against him.

No wonder Hazel only weighed eighty-something poundsโ€”if she were two hundred, Ethan couldn’t have held her single-handedly, right?

Nathan sounded satisfied. "Watch her here. I will go keep Lady Eleanor company." He turned and left, leaving me half-naked with the merciless Ethan and the sea of corpses.

The bug worked fast. Coldness soaked through me, like being plunged into an ice tombโ€”bone-piercing agony.

I writhed on the floor; my skin froze, but sweat hammered from my brow.

Ethan crouched by me. I watched the corner of his mouth lift as his long fingers traced my collarbone, slid down over my chest, to my bellyโ€”and then he yanked out the iron ball.

Blood spurted, but the bug numbed me to pain.

He pulled out a second ball, then leaned down and licked the blood from my wound.

I trembled in shock.

I didn’t know the rest of the story beyond Hazel’s death; I hadn’t seen this part. Ethan looked youngโ€”probably underage.

Pale, slightly gaunt face. Small, sharp eyes, thick lashes, red lips and white teeth.

Why would such a pretty boy do a sick bastard’s bidding? Maybe he was twisted himself.

He took a little inhale of my blood. "Sister tastes sweet." He said it like a compliment. I grimaced in pain, too weak to speak.

Appreciation swam in his gazeโ€”he reveled in my perfect but suffering body. How warped.

The cold ebbed, replaced by a burning heat, like my skin would crack open.

"H-Helpโ€”please." I mustered what strength I had for those words.

Ethan’s long fingers stroked my cheek. He smiled and asked, "How do you want me to help you?" I didn’t know. I had no idea how to break a curse-bug.

The alternation of freezing and burning nearly stole my sanity.

I didn’t know how long he would toy with me. Not long after, I finally blacked out.

I, at last, was beaten into unconsciousness.

When I came to againโ€”time had no meaning.

My body felt like it had been run over by a truck. Gritting my teeth, I forced my eyes open. Whatever came nextโ€”open my eyes, first.

"Hazel, you’re awake!" At the bedside was a long-legged, pretty pale womanโ€”who else but the heroine?

Thank God. Eleanor Grant was sitting beside my bed in a normal room. Those two perverts were gone.

Saintly Eleanor’s eyes brimmed. "Hazel, I know you didn’t do it. I did this to you." Noโ€”actually, I did.

She dabbed tears. "I fainted and couldn’t stop the duke. But don’t worry, I told him it wasn’t you. He also gave you the antidote." Such a saint.

I couldn’t help asking, "Then who do you think hurt you?" She thought for a moment, then shook her head. "I don’t know. Maybe it’s my bad luck. Maybe I’m not meant to have this child." Tears pooled again. My goodnessโ€”she cried faster than when I was being abused!

With such a Mary-Sue heroine, how could I, the villainess, have hurt her?

I soothed her. "It’s okay. The duke dotes on youโ€”I’m sure you’ll have children." Eleanor clasped my hand. "I knew you were kind, Hazel. Enough about me. You’ve been unconscious three days and nights. Are you hungry? I’ll have them bring food."

Three days? I had been out that long. "What time is it?" She peeked outside and smiled. "It’s past the hour of the pig."

I panicked. "Then the dukeโ€”" Sure enough, a servant at the door announced, "The duke has arrived." In the original book, Nathan West and Eleanor were always together at that hour.

Even while he was interrogating and torturing me, he’d slip away right on schedule to visit his wife, leaving me for Ethan.

Ethan’s face flashed into my head and I clutched at my chest, retching up a mouthful of blood.

Eleanor rose to greet Nathan, but seeing me she turned back, consoling: "Hazel, don’t be upset. Since you’ve married into West Manor, I won’t hog him all to myself." ??? That’s one big misunderstanding!

As expected, Nathan scowled. "Eleanor, what are you talking about!" I sat up and watched them hold hands. Tears shone in Eleanor’s eyes. "Duke, you should give Hazel some love too." She said it, but gripped his hand even tighter, eyes full of expectant hope.

Nathan brushed her tears away and sighed, "You’d have me love another? I’d rather be dead."

Well then, go ahead and dieโ€”but not on me. Definitely don’t love me. And stop feeding me dog food.

Internally I sighed. As a reader I used to think Nathan’s devotion was romantic. Now that I’m one of the targetsโ€”especially just after being abusedโ€”it’s true: smiling on the outside, a mess inside.

They ignored me and dote-doted for a long while.

Finally Nathan scooped Eleanor up in an armful and carried her back to their bedchamber.

Soโ€ฆthree days and three nightsโ€”and I don’t get any food?

Nope. I’m already full of dog-food.

When night fell and the house grew quiet, hunger kept me awake.

Strangely, the wounds seemed healedโ€”no visible marks.

I felt my way to the kitchen, hoping for leftovers.

Just as I was stuffing a steamed bun into my mouth, a hand landed on my shoulder.

Startled, I turnedโ€”and the bun choked me.

I relaxed when I recognized the woman. For a second I had been terrified it was Ethan.

The woman patted my back to help me breathe and murmured, "You did well this time. The crown prince will reward you." It was Mrs. Jenkinsโ€”my handler.

Hazel had become Duke Nathaniel West’s concubine not because Nathaniel loved her, but because the Crown Prince arranged it.

The old emperor was frail; the throne uncertain. Crown Prince William had married years ago but had no children. He resented rivals. Duke Nathaniel’s prominence made him a threat.

The prince feared Nathaniel fathering an heir first, so he ordered me to cause Eleanor’s miscarriage.

As the villainess whose goal was to win Nathaniel’s love, Hazel had willingly helped the prince.

So although Nathaniel might execute a hundred innocents before letting one go, he did kill the spies around him.

With my arrival, things deviated from the plan.

"Mrs. Jenkins, I barely escaped with my life this time. I might not be so lucky next time. Please tell the prince I don’t want to do his dirty work anymore." I wanted outโ€”leave the manor and live free.

"Have you forgotten your family is still in the prince’s hands?" Oh rightโ€”I forgot. Hazel had a brother and sister held hostage by the prince.

But theyโ€™re not my siblings!

Is my life worth less than theirs?

I roared inside but didnโ€™t dare say it out loud.

In this perverse world, who knew what they would do if they discovered I wasnโ€™t the original Hazel Bennett.

Dissect me?

I fell silent. Mrs. Jenkins said, โ€œGood child, the Crown Prince has helped our whole house. Donโ€™t say things like that.โ€ I nodded, thinking Iโ€™d have to sneak out later to find a chance.

โ€œThe royal hunt is the day after tomorrow. Youโ€™ll go with Duke Nathaniel West,โ€ Mrs. Jenkins came closer and murmured in my ear, โ€œFind a way to hurt him.โ€

Oh God.

Iโ€™m about to get myself killed again.

Mrs. Jenkins saw my hesitation. โ€œAt least hurt Eleanor Grantโ€”distract the Duke.โ€ โ€œCough, okay, Iโ€™ll think about it.โ€ How could this be reasonable? Iโ€™d sneaked out for a steamed bun and somehow gotten assigned a main plot task?

After seeing Mrs. Jenkins off, I crept back to my room.

There was no light; I groped along the dark until I reached the bed.

A cold hand was on the edgeโ€ฆ โ€œWho?!โ€ I jumped so hard my heart stopped. My eyes adjusted, and I saw someone lying on the bed.

He turned lazily onto his side, propping his head with one hand. โ€œSister, naughty, sneaking out this late,โ€ he said with a half-smirk. If it wasnโ€™t Ethan, who else could it be?

A consort sneaking off to meet the Dukeโ€™s guards in the dead of night?

If this got out, Iโ€™d be a goner.

So I kept my voice low and hissed, โ€œWhat are you doing here? Get out!โ€

Moonlight cut through, showing his crooked, upward-smiling mouth. He looked pleased. โ€œHow exactly do you want me to leave?โ€ I didnโ€™t have time for his games. โ€œDonโ€™t act innocent. If the Duke finds out, you wonโ€™t get off easy.โ€ I had to use Nathan West as leverage.

He wasnโ€™t afraid. He snorted coldly. โ€œHeโ€™s busy fooling around with Lady Eleanor. Why would I be here if not to keep you company?โ€ โ€œDonโ€™t call me sister!โ€ This little pervert seemed to have completely forgotten how heโ€™d abused me that day.

Acting like nothing happened?

What kind of mind is that?

โ€œHm, then what should I call you? Claire? Little Claire?โ€ Goddamnโ€”

โ€œWhat do you want?!โ€ His voice was childish but intoxicating; I felt nothing but terror and nausea.

Ethan suddenly stood. I instinctively backed up until I hit the wall and he pressed in.

Young as he was, he towered over me, and the pressure of fear made me hold my breath. My hands were braced against his chest to keep him off.

He leaned down and whispered in my ear, โ€œYou asked what I wanted.โ€ โ€œRight here.โ€ He kissed me againโ€”this time my earlobe.

I went rigid, my whole body tingling.

Here I was in my mid-twenties being molested by a sixteen-year-old.

I tried to kick him, but he easily dodged and came closer, smug. โ€œThe more you resist, the more I like it.โ€ I couldnโ€™t even speak; I felt his arousal for real.

He rubbed against me in a way that was different from that brutal night.

โ€œYou were out for three days. I missed you so much!โ€ he said, then slid his hand to my waist and wrapped it around me.

โ€œIโ€™m a consort of Duke West. If you touch me like this, arenโ€™t you afraid Iโ€™ll tell the Duke?โ€ I challenged him. โ€œWould you dare?โ€ he scoffed. I wouldnโ€™t.

โ€œI hate you. You canโ€™t do this!โ€

I turned my face away so he couldnโ€™t kiss me.

He lifted his head from my neck. โ€œSo what?โ€ Then he bent down and kissed me again, whispering by my ear, โ€œI like you. Thatโ€™s enough.โ€ I shivered. The image I had of him before was a bloodthirsty killer with a big blade.

That same murderer was whispering sweetness in my ear.

Ethan pinned my hands with one, groped with the other.

He sighed softly. โ€œSisterโ€™s body is so beautiful. I wish youโ€™d been locked in the dungeon forever. I would stay with you.โ€ Ugh. The pond that early March night was still bone-numbing cold.

Drowning myself was the only way I could temporarily quiet my mind.

When I dragged my mud-heavy body back to my room, I already knew Iโ€™d be sick by morning.

The next day.

Not just a cold. I could hardly crawl out of bed.

The Duchess sent two maidservantsโ€”Maggie and Juneโ€”to attend me. My original attendants had been ordered killed by Ethan on Nathanโ€™s orders.

Maggie wiped my forehead and fretted, โ€œYour Grace, why are you so bad all of a sudden?โ€ June chimed in, โ€œWe should call the Court Physician.โ€ I waved them off. โ€œI know my body.โ€ Maggie frowned. โ€œBut how will you go to the hunt tomorrow in this state?โ€ These girlsโ€™ fortunes rose and fell with their mistressโ€™s. They probably wanted me to be favored someday, not abandoned at the gate.

I didnโ€™t want to risk my life again.

โ€œCough. Iโ€™m afraid I canโ€™t go. June, ask Lady Eleanor for leave for me.โ€ If I didnโ€™t go, none of the lead coupleโ€™s drama could be pinned on me.

Let me quietly be a pretty corpse.

June bowed and left respectfully.

In the quiet afternoon, I dismissed the others.

At last I could lie and think.

Four days since I transmigrated into this hellโ€”what now?

West Manor was heavily guarded; I, a frail weakling, couldnโ€™t easily run.

And where would I go?

Farm? I donโ€™t know how.

Seduce the hero? Hah. Harder than escaping.

Nathan West only loved Eleanor Grant. Even if Ethan had done something to me, the Duke would never accept it.

I was just a useless lay-aboutโ€ฆ without the heroineโ€™s halo, I didnโ€™t even know which chapter Iโ€™d die in.

โ€œYour Grace, the Dukeโ€™s here!โ€ Excited Maggie burst in. My heart sank.

Nathan West came in with Eleanor and the Court Physician behind them.

โ€œClaire, whatโ€™s wrong? Youโ€™re worse just from one day,โ€ Eleanor fretted, brow drawn.

Nathan glanced, annoyed. The physician was signaled to take my pulse. I, pale and fragile, said, โ€œForgive me, I cannot rise to greet the Duke and Duchess.โ€ Polite formalities spared no one.

Nathan barely looked my way. Eleanor squeezed my hand. โ€œWeโ€™re family; stop saying such things.โ€ I didnโ€™t believe any kindness from the male lead.

The Court Physician stroked his beard. โ€œConsort has a chill, nothing grave. Iโ€™ll prescribe medicine.โ€ โ€œThank you,โ€ I said softly, alarmed. My body was surprisingly hardyโ€”after all that, just a chill. What if I couldnโ€™t avoid the hunt?

Eleanor squeezed my hand again. โ€œGood. Get some rest, Claire. Tomorrow weโ€™ll go hunting together.โ€ I feigned weakness. โ€œYour Grace, I feel terrible. May I be excused?โ€ โ€œIf you donโ€™t go, I wonโ€™t go either. Iโ€™ll stay and keep you company.โ€ โ€ฆThis is about to turn into a sapphic novel!

Nathan disagreed at once. โ€œEleanor, donโ€™t be absurd. Youโ€™re my primary wife; of course you go. As for her, sheโ€™s dispensable.โ€ His glare stabbed me; I shrank from his eyes.

Eleanor huffed and stamped her little heroine-foot. โ€œThe hunt will be full of men. Even the few wives there are flatterersโ€”none of them are like Claire.โ€ She still treated me like a dear friendโ€”the silly sweet heroine who had no idea how many times Iโ€™d sabotaged her.

Eleanor looked ready to throw a three-act tantrum; Nathan relented fast. โ€œFine, fine. Even if I have to carry her, weโ€™ll bring her.โ€ Eleanor glowed. I was a supporting role with no tears left.

So that was settledโ€ฆ Night came, and maybe Iโ€™d slept during the day too long.

I tossed and turned, hardly sleeping.

Just when I drifted off, a whisper cameโ€”โ€œSister, sister.โ€ His seductive murmur promised heโ€™d return tomorrow.

It felt like a blade pressed to my chest, not knowing when heโ€™d push harder and kill me, or drag me down forever. I fell into a fearful sleep, haunted by that pale, young hand, waking in a sweat.

I woke early to a dim sky and felt a little calmerโ€”at least last night no one had come.

Maggie and June arrived early to help me dress. jeweled hairpins jostled in my face; it irritated me.

โ€œAre you not resting, Your Grace? You look terrible.โ€ I sniffled. โ€œIโ€™m suffering.โ€ A chill could be cured; a frightened heart could not.

Maggie picked a dress. โ€œYouโ€™re so fair. Wear redโ€”itโ€™ll bring color.โ€ June agreed, โ€œYes, and Iโ€™ll put on more rouge.โ€ โ€œNo. Pick something plain, and not so many pins.โ€ They were disappointed. โ€œWhy? Youโ€™re gorgeous. Why not dress up?โ€ โ€œTodayโ€™s a rare chance to be seenโ€”you might even meet the Emperor.โ€ I ignored them. The bolder a supporting role, the faster she dies.

The royal hunt was livelyโ€”like a military parade, all about showing strength.

At the gate, Nathan and Eleanor shared a moment before separating to join the other princes.

I trailed with Eleanor, chatting with the female party.

Of course Eleanor, the primary wife, spoke and laughed while I walked beside her in a cream floral dress, no makeupโ€”practically a maid.

Exactly what I wanted. Let them all ignore me.

The women were relatives of princes and ministers; their status depended on their husbands.

At the center, Eleanor drew the most attention. I looked them over; the heroineโ€™s aura still made her prettier.

When the princess arrived, everyone snapped to. Princess Charlotte commanded attentionโ€”she didnโ€™t need a husband; she had her fatherโ€™s favor.

They called each other โ€œsister-in-lawโ€ out of politeness but didnโ€™t actually care. Eleanor wore a kind, motherly smile and tugged at Princess Charlotte. โ€œCharlotteโ€™s grown taller and lovely.โ€ Charlotte and Nathan were both born of Consort Xiao, so they were close.

Princess Charlotte smiled in reply, then glanced at me before turning back to Eleanor Grant. โ€œSo this is the side concubine of my second brother?โ€ she asked.

Eleanor Grant looped her arm through mine. โ€œIndeed. Hazel Bennett has come to pay her respects.โ€ I inclined my head in a bow.

Princess Charlotte snorted. โ€œAll that talk about a beauty to rival the heavensโ€”hardly. Not even as good as Countess Victoria Hale I introduced to my brother last time.โ€ Ugh, such a sister-in-law.

I stared up at the sky in silence. No wonder Eleanor complained about how difficult the other ladies were to get along with.

One little sister-in-law alone was exhausting.

Eleanor smiled without changing expression. โ€œThe princessโ€™ companion is, of course, unparalleled. Itโ€™s a pity Countess Victoria is not yet of age. If my lord ever needs a match, I will keep an eye out for suitable candidates.โ€ The heroine was, indeed, a heroineโ€”nimble with words even in front of her in-laws.

If she hates other women sharing her man, why was she so cordial to me?

Could it be sheโ€™d seen that Nathan West had no interest in me at allโ€ฆ?

The other ladies chatted for a few more rounds, all polite pleasantries.

At last the royal hunt began. The princes rode their chargers with fierce dignity.

The emperor in the high seat, already in his sixties, beamed like a proud father admiring his lifeโ€™s workโ€”dozens of sons.

Fine. I hadnโ€™t been counting.

A royal hunt was really a family sport: see whose martial skill and prowess won the most game; also a prime chance for the princes to curry favor with the emperor.

The herald read the rules. The contestants tightened like drawn bows, ready to launch.

But before the hunt properly started, it was over.

For some reason, Duke Westโ€™s horse bolted.

I swear to the heavens I had nothing to do with it.

Even Crown Prince William shot me a look that was half-pleased.

Nathan West was skilledโ€”good with weapons and horsesโ€”but whatever spooked that steed had sent it into a frenzy, rearing and bucking.

He tried everything to calm it and only made it angrier, until one misstep pitched him off.

The runaway horse tore across the fieldโ€”straight toward Eleanor Grantโ€”as if it had been sent.

Nathan lay injured on the ground, helpless at the sight of the woman he loved in danger.

He gathered energy, scooped up a handful of stones, and sent them flying; one struck the horse, making it scream, wheel, and then chargeโ€”right for me.

What theโ€”why am I the tragic side character who gets the fire thrown on her?

I hadnโ€™t done anything and yet trouble finds me.

The other ladies scattered as soon as they saw the danger, leaving me frozen, unable to dodge in time.

I wondered briefly if being trampled would wake me back into my old life.

Clinging to the certainty of death, I heard a whoosh.

The horse folded onto the ground with a great thudโ€”an arrow through its eye.

It wasnโ€™t anyone else whoโ€™d saved me: it was Crown Prince William.

He sat tall on his horse, the golden bow still in his hand. Only after the horse collapsed and the threat was gone did he offer me a faint nod.

The guards finally reacted and subdued the panicked horse; chaos erupted. The emperor turned pale with alarm and ordered the court physician to treat his injured son.

My nerves were shredded; the hunt broke up in disarray.

In the makeshift tent, the court physician dressed Nathanโ€™s wounds.

The emperor fumed, blaming his attendantsโ€™ negligence for letting a vicious horse hurt a duke.

The groom knelt, trembling. โ€œYour Majesty, forgive meโ€”this horse belonged to Duke West himself. I truly do not know what happened!โ€

โ€œWorthlessโ€”drag him out and execute him.โ€ Well then. So Nathan Westโ€™s apparent disregard for human life really was a family trait.

Under the emperorโ€™s fury, Eleanor and I found ourselves on our knees.

โ€œDuchess Eleanor, what do you have to say about this?โ€ the emperor demanded. Eleanor panicked for a moment, banging her head to the ground a few times, speechless.

I was thinking whether I should say something when Crown Prince William stepped forward first.

He advanced a step, voice clear and strong. โ€œFather, this matter seems suspicious. I will shoulder the burden and investigate.โ€ The emperor nodded, mildly satisfied, then glared at us. โ€œStop this kowtowing and go take care of Duke West.โ€ We chimed obediently and left. As we walked away, I stole a look at the prince, thoughtful.

What I was thinking wasโ€ฆ the old gazeboโ€”what did that mean?

In the earlier scramble, heโ€™d slipped me a note: Meet at our old place tonight.

Even though heโ€™d saved me and helped smooth things over with the emperor, I had no clue where the old place was!

The hunt had been held in the nearby countryside, and everyone stayed overnight at a small outpost villa rather than returning to the capital.

Nathan told me not to come see him, which suited me just fineโ€”no interest in the lovebirdsโ€™ drama.

Ashfordโ€™s power was such that even this country villa was gilded in luxury; each courtyard even had its own hot spring.

As dusk fell, I soaked in a steaming pool, studying the noteโ€™s neat, forceful handwriting.

The pen strokes were confident and properโ€”except the time and place were maddeningly vague.

I wanted to go. In the past few days, no reliable person had shown up for me.

Even a flawed crown prince couldnโ€™t be worse than the people in Duke Westโ€™s household.

And if I latched onto him, maybe I could turn my luck around and change my lifeโ€™s course.

With that in mind, I slapped my thigh to get goingโ€”then slipped as I stood and collapsed back into the water.

A cold hand clamped my shoulder from behind. โ€œSister, where are you going?โ€ Ughโ€”of course heโ€™d show up too.

The hot spring steamed around us, and despite the warmth I began to tremble.

I had developed a sickness: every time Ethan appeared, I shook.

Long, slender fingers rested on my collarbone. He leaned down slightly; I couldnโ€™t bring myself to look.

I only had a doddering undergarment onโ€”this pervert had impeccable timing.

โ€œMove. Iโ€™m getting dressed.โ€ I forced myself to stay calm; Maggie and June were just outside the courtyard and several guards were nearby. No scene, please.

His hand slid and probed at my chest. โ€œWhy be shy? Itโ€™s not like I havenโ€™t seen it before.โ€ I recoiled, leapt sideways, and glared daggers at him.

Up close, he wasnโ€™t his usual carefree self. Blood spattered his clothes; his hair was a messโ€”he looked like heโ€™d crawled out of a burial mound.

No wonder his hand was so cold on my shoulder.

He sat on the edge, one knee bent, the arm over his other leg. When he noticed me looking, he immediately put on a wounded expression.

โ€œIโ€™m hurt,โ€ he said.

Something like joy bubbled in me at the rare vulnerable look. โ€œGood,โ€ I breathed.

Ethan sneered faintly and brushed his hair back. โ€œYou really donโ€™t care about me, do you?โ€

I shot him an ice-cold glare. โ€œWhy would I care about the beast who hurt me?โ€

โ€œHeh. Fair enough.โ€ He glanced at the blood on his chest and pinched at the fabric. โ€œToo badโ€”that isnโ€™t my blood.โ€

His smug face made me speechless, like Iโ€™d swallowed a fly.

He grabbed my submerged hand suddenly. โ€œArenโ€™t you going to explain this?โ€

I clutched the note in my palm; it was already soaked.

Why did I feel like Iโ€™d been caught red-handed?

He tightened his grip until it felt like my wrist would break. Pain flared.

โ€œLet go!โ€ I struggled to pry his fingers off, to no avail.

A terrible voice sounded beside my ear: โ€œYou donโ€™t want me to touch you?โ€ he demanded.

โ€œYes!โ€ I shot back, eyes rimmed red. โ€œI hate you. I want you deadโ€”only then would I be happy!โ€ In the next instant he released my wristโ€”and his cold palm landed on my throat, forcing my head back. The world paled around the edges.

Panic and suffocation clawed in; I flailed and smacked at him.

Ethanโ€™s face blurredโ€”like there were two of him.

He hissed, โ€œYou wonโ€™t let me touch you, but you let other men touch your hand?โ€ His tone was accusing.

I couldnโ€™t understand. I could barely form wordsโ€”my throat stung, my head throbbed; my blood rushed.

At the brink of blacking outโ€”

He let go. Then, impossibly, he pulled me into his arms and attacked my lips like a starving man.

I bit his lower lip and shoved him away, then slapped him hard.

โ€œYouโ€™re insane!โ€ I shouted, then slumped back in the water, gulping air. For a split second I truly believed heโ€™d tried to kill me.

He licked his jaw with a cold face and puffed out his cheeks. โ€œYouโ€™re strong, sister.โ€

โ€œIโ€”wish I could beat you to death,โ€ I spat. Three red marks bloomed on his face where Iโ€™d struck with everything I had.

It still wasnโ€™t enough.

Ethan only laughed, strangely gentle, and said, โ€œI told youโ€”you can get your revenge however you want.โ€

I gritted my teeth. โ€œWhat can I do? I canโ€™t beat you!โ€ Weakest comeback ever.

He stretched the smile wider. โ€œYou could take revenge in bed.โ€

โ€œI spit on you! You filthy beast!โ€ I tried to slap him again, but he caught my wrist. I protested, โ€œYou said I could hit you however I want.โ€

โ€œOhโ€”forgot about that,โ€ Ethan said lightly, like a rogue.

I looked at this boy grinning like a fool and felt helpless.

Then a distant shout cut throughโ€”people yelling. โ€œAn assassin! An assassin!โ€ โ€œThe crown princeโ€™s life has been taken!โ€ Silence fell like a suffocating weight.

I stared at the bloodied boy before me. He, of course, fulfilled expectations with a slow, calm confession. โ€œYou two were stealing looks at each other. He even touched your hand. Do I look blind?โ€

โ€œAnd?โ€ I asked. I already guessed the ending but couldnโ€™t help asking.

โ€œSoโ€ฆ I killed him.โ€

Those words fell from his thin lips as if they were nothing.

My heart went cold as deep water. I forced my voice steady. โ€œYou have it all wrong. I had nothing with the crown prince.โ€

Ethan nodded. โ€œGood. Then take it as me overreacting.โ€

โ€œBut you killed him! Whyโ€”how could you?โ€ Breath hitched; my chest rose and fell. โ€œYou could have asked me first!โ€

โ€œUnimportant,โ€ he replied.

โ€œUnimportant? A lifeโ€”another, the crown prince! You say itโ€™s unimportant?โ€ The boy who could be a devil stared at me with a terrifying calm.

He said, โ€œIf I want to kill, I kill.โ€ Then he looked at me intently. โ€œDoes it hurt inside?โ€ He seemed to search my face for somethingโ€”expectancy, perhaps. He wanted me to say I didnโ€™t care about the princeโ€™s death.

I would not give him that.

Though I felt nothing for the crown prince, I couldnโ€™t comprehend such cruelty.

I sneered. โ€œDo you understand what a crime it is to assassinate the crown prince?โ€

Ethan wiped away a tear on my cheek as if it surprised him that Iโ€™d cried. He changed the subject with practiced ease: โ€œYouโ€™re crying for him.โ€

I flung his hand away. While he was unprepared, I called out at the top of my lungs, โ€œGuards! Catch the assassin!โ€ Let it end. Break it all.

If it came to that, I would rather burn it down with him.

I didnโ€™t want to sink with this monster anymore.

Ethan couldnโ€™t stop my shout in time. The pounding of running boots and the anxious shouts of Maggie and June drew nearer.

The first time I smiled that brilliantly at him, I meant it: โ€œIf you wonโ€™t leave me in peace, I wonโ€™t let you be comfortable either!โ€ If this came out, fineโ€”Iโ€™d be branded scandalous. Maybe Nathan wouldnโ€™t execute me; maybe heโ€™d just throw me out of the West Manor. I could live with that.

But the assassin who tried to kill the Crown Prince would certainly be sentenced to death.

โ€œGood, sister.โ€ Ethanโ€™s face betrayed no panic as he deftly shrugged off his outer robe.

Was he going to catch us in an indiscretion? Drag me down with him?

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