Starlit Secrets and Quiet Crushes

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Starlit Secrets and Quiet Crushes

When I went to pick up a package, I found out the recipient was the underclassman I’ve been quietly crushing on for ages.

The underclassman—Evan Parker—said he didn’t have a girlfriend. I believed him.

But then his roommate suddenly showed up, threw an arm over his shoulder, and grinned, "Let’s make sure we use up this whole box tonight, yeah?"

"Use… up…?" I had, uh, received a box of… well. To be precise, I’d grabbed the wrong delivery.

Normally, to avoid mixing up packages, I’d set my pickup name to something loud and unique—"HaHaHaHaHa."

Six “ha”s — loud enough, right?

That’s how it happened. Rushing at one p.m., I grabbed the wrong package.

Back in the dorm, I tore it open and found my carefully ordered earrings and hairpins replaced by a box of… well, very obvious stuff.

What the heck?

But more than that, I wanted to know who the package was addressed to — who’s name could make me make such a stupid mistake.

I looked closer and nearly laughed out loud.

The recipient’s name read: “NoWayHaha.”

Then I checked the phone number. It looked like the University card numbers we all have; the last two digits were both 03.

Ugh.

I was about to call the intended owner when I noticed every box had three words stamped on it: “XL Size.”

I couldn’t help but click my tongue. Well, this guy is, uh, well-endowed.

After a little commiseration with my roommates, I dialed the number on the slip.

A pleasant young guy answered — and his voice, for some reason, sounded a bit like my long-time crush, the underclassman.

I explained I’d accidentally grabbed his package and asked when I could return it.

There was a few seconds of silence, then he quietly asked, “You… didn’t open it, did you?”

I paused, and to dodge embarrassment I lied, “No. I was about to open it but then I noticed the name and called you right away.”

He sounded relieved. “Okay, meet me at the Campus Cafeteria east entrance in ten minutes.”

He even added politely, “Thanks.”

I assumed it was just a simple mix-up. I was wrong.

Ten minutes later I was standing by the cafeteria’s east gate, clutching the box I’d taped back together, staring, stunned, at the boy in front of me — the “XL Size” guy.

He was actually my long-time crush, Evan Parker — the underclassman!

Of course.

Evan is a year below me, a sophomore. Clean, bright, like a slender poplar tree — pretty in that unassuming, proper way.

I’d always bump into him on campus, but he gave off a “admire-from-afar” vibe; I’d never found the nerve to talk to him up close.

This might be the closest I’d ever been.

The box in my arms suddenly felt hot. “This is yours?” I asked, double-checking.

He glanced at the slip, nodded, mouth pressed in a small line. “Yes…”

Today he looked particularly handsome — a white tee, his black hair freshly trimmed at the sides, clean and neat.

We stood just a couple steps apart; the breeze brought a faint, pleasant scent from him — some light men’s cologne, really nice.

But then a pang hit me. If Evan already had a girlfriend and they were this intimate… my chest tightened.

I shoved the box toward him without thinking and blurted, sourly, “Well, then — wishes for you and your girlfriend.”

I deliberately emphasized “wishes,” making it sound pointed.

My underclassman has a girlfriend; my romantic dreams are over.

Evan paused, blinked for a couple seconds, then surprised me. “Don’t get the wrong idea. I don’t have a girlfriend.”

No girlfriend?

I’d already forgotten the lie I’d told on the phone. “Then this whole box is…?” I said, pointing to the taped-up package.

He didn’t answer right away. Instead he asked, “You said… you didn’t open it, right?”

I hesitated, tried to change the subject. “That’s not important. You still haven’t answered my question.”

This time Evan was the one quiet. After a few seconds he rubbed the tip of his nose awkwardly. “I don’t really know how to explain… but it’s not what you think.”

I sat with that for a moment, then smiled inwardly. No girlfriend — that meant I still had a chance.

I’ve always believed in seizing opportunity, so I went on offense. “Sorry about taking your package. Let me make it up to you — dinner on me?”

Unexpectedly, Evan nodded and agreed.

He followed me into the cafeteria, cradling the box I’d opened and resealed. The cafeteria was a little empty; I kept telling myself to be bold and subtly closed the distance between us.

Evan didn’t seem to notice. Even when my sleeve brushed his arm, he just held the box quietly, no reaction.

I chickened out and pulled back.

We finally decided on the cafeteria’s new pickled fish dish.

At the table, while we waited for food, Evan stared at his phone and I pretended to do the same but kept sneaking glances.

He had that youthful boyishness — clean, clear, and striking. The more I looked, the more the world felt kinder.

Maybe sensing my gaze, Evan looked a little nervous; he held his phone in one hand and rubbed at his fingertip.

I found myself looking at his hands. Long, neat fingers, well-kept nails — no dirt under them, nothing untidy. Even his pinky nails weren’t long.

No wonder I liked him. Every tiny detail fit my taste.

He suddenly lifted his head and our eyes met. To smooth the moment, I pretended I didn’t know him and asked, “Which year are you?”

He answered earnestly, “I’m Evan Parker, a sophomore.”

I already knew that. I know he’s born September 29 (Libra), likes sour and sweet flavors. But I played along. “Oh! I’m a year older — Senior (Claire).”

He didn’t look surprised. “And what’s your name?”

“Claire Bennett.”

I worried my name was too plain to remember, but he smiled. “Nice name. It suits you — sweet.”

Sweet?

I froze, then my heart raced.

He called me sweet.

He must be trying to flirt.

Riding that bold, ridiculous excitement, I added Evan on social and probed a bit about his past.

He truly seemed spotless — in appearance, his social feed, and his love history. He said he’d only dated once and that it ended cleanly.

A gem of a guy.

But the evening kept offering surprises.

While I was mentally debating what kind of girls Evan might like, another guy came over and clapped a hand on Evan’s shoulder. “I forgot my key. Is anyone in the Dormitory? Do you have a key?”

Evan took out his keys and handed them over. The other guy saw the large taped box on the table and grinned. “Oh, that’s here already? I’ll tell Mason and the others to come back early tonight and we’ll… use it.”

Use it?

It took me a long beat to realize — Evan hadn’t said he had no girlfriend; he hadn’t said he didn’t have a boyfriend either.

I spent a few seconds letting that shocking truth sink in, then — I ran.

I was pathetic. I couldn’t accept it. The sweet, pure underclassman I’d crushed on had different romantic preferences — and apparently not exclusive to one man.

My youthful fantasies weren’t just over; they’d collapsed.

I walked so fast I felt like I was doing a racewalk from high school.

Back in the Dormitory, I kicked off my shoes, dove under the covers, buried my head. What a shocking, painful day.

I never thought I’d find such gossip about my crush — and such explosive gossip at that. A few minutes later my phone buzzed.

It was Evan. I hesitated and let the call go to voicemail. I couldn’t face him, not now… then a message came through.

“Claire, I don’t know how to explain. It’s not what you think. A few words won’t do — can I take you to dinner tonight and explain the whole thing?”

I fidgeted. I pulled a coin from my pocket, telling myself that if it landed heads I’d go.

When the coin landed with the floral side up, I immediately flipped it and typed back, “Okay. Send me the address.”

No one really lets a coin decide, but at that instant I realized what I wanted.

I still had one class that afternoon. After class I rushed to the Dormitory, showered, put on makeup, and changed into a white dress. I figured Evan was the kind of cool, untouchable type; I wanted to look a little ethereal to match him.

He’d chosen a neighborhood bistro on the street outside the University. We were seated in the third private room on the left upstairs.

When I opened the door, there he was. I was surprised to see him leaned back, a half-smoked cigarette between his fingertips.

I’d been watching him so long and I never knew — Evan smoked.

He looked up when the door opened. Seeing me, he instinctively stubbed the cigarette out and started coughing like the smoke had hit him.

He stood and waved the lingering smoke away, then pulled out a chair for me. “Sorry I’m a bit late. I thought you might be hungry, so I ordered a few things. Tell me if it’s not to your taste, I’ll add more.”

He handed me the menu. Honestly, I felt flattered. Five dishes and a soup were already on the table — too much for two.

“Don’t bother,” I said, closing the menu and propping my chin on my hand. “So, you really aren’t…?”

I was way too curious.

All afternoon I ran through every possibility and couldn’t guess it. If it wasn’t what I’d imagined, then what the hell was it?

Bought for a roommate?

Then why did his roommate say, "We’ll use it up together tonight"?

That kind of predatory line… I stared at Evan, waiting for his answer.

His pale face flushed in an instant.

He looked away and stammered, "There really isn’t anything to it. My bunkmate saw a video online saying you can blow this thing up like a balloon and fill it with water to make it huge. We were just curious, so we bought one to try it…"

Honestly, I was stunned.

I’d considered everything, but I never expected such a childish truth.

"Really?"

Evan sat up straight, looking so earnest it was hard not to believe him. "Really."

He rubbed his nose, the suspicious blush still there. "It’s just… boys being immature and gross. Don’t read into it…"

Me… fine, I wouldn’t read into it.

I kind of wanted to laugh, and honestly, he was getting more adorable by the minute.

And knowing he didn’t have some bizarre fetish, I finally relaxed completely.

Words practically escaped my mouth without thinking. "So… you’re not XL size then?"

At that, Evan blushed even harder.

This underclassman, a year below me, looked so cute with those rosy cheeks—he reminded me of a spoiled British Shorthair cat I used to have.

I wanted to ruffle his hair.

After fumbling for a bit, he suddenly spoke, voice so low I could barely hear: "I—I think I’m about the same…"

My eyes lit up. Huh, the underclassman was pretty confident.

The next two days, Evan and I barely made any progress.

We exchanged a few morning and night messages, and that was it. I tried a few times to start a conversation but ran out of things to say and gave up.

A week later, my roommate dragged me to register for the swim team—and I ran into Evan.

Wearing… swim trunks.

Guilty as charged, I couldn’t help sneaking a look and my chest tightened.

Damn.

Turns out the underclassman’s confidence had some merit.

It was too embarrassing to stare, so I quickly looked away.

Since Evan was there, I decided not to bail like I’d planned.

As the saying goes, close to the water, get the moon first—plus, swimsuits are worn in the water.

I was reasonably confident about my figure.

Slim waist, long legs, perky—strutting across the pool in a swimsuit would be doing myself a favor.

But I’d barely changed into my suit and before I could go show off, I fell into the pool.

The pool deck was crowded. Someone bumped my left shoulder hard as they walked by.

I didn’t even have time to react before I plunged headfirst into the deep end.

And the worst part—I can’t swim.

The moment I hit the water, my mind went blank. I thrashed instinctively, and amid the panic I heard another splash and sensed another person nearby.

The face looked a little like Evan’s.

He swam over fast and grabbed me.

In an emergency, the will to survive is fierce. I had no time to think; I wrapped my legs around whoever was in front of me and clung to their neck.

I swear I didn’t know who it was—this was pure instinct, not any opportunistic thought.

But instinct didn’t seem to be mine alone.

He struggled, carrying me to the shallow end, then pulled us up to sit on the deck.

I remained frozen in that clingy position, brain still foggy, and felt something off. I turned my head and relaxed when I saw who it was.

It was Evan—except his face was beet-red, even his earlobes were flushed.

I had a pretty good idea why.

I stared for a second, then leaned close to his ear and whispered, "Underclassman, you’re poking me…"

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