The Crush That Lasted A Decade

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The Crush That Lasted A Decade

The guy I had a crush on put my QQ number in his profile signature, with the line: "Any love letters not sent from this number will be ignored."

I wondered for a while whether he liked me back, until… the first week after I returned to the States, I somehow ended up on my childhood friend’s bed.

Yeah. The dental chair.

"Open wide. Bite down on this piece of paper and don’t let go."

I didn’t dare move an inch—afraid one wrong twitch and he’d knock my tooth clean out.

So I had to endure his flirtatious teasing for a full two hours.

"Oh, this is your first time in my hands? I’ll go easy then."

"This tube’s going to go pretty deep—tell me if it gets uncomfortable."

"If you can’t speak, just make a sound. ‘Ah’ or ‘Mm,’ your pick."

"’Ah’ doesn’t sound great—alright, just raise your hand."

"Nurse, hold her hand tighter."

Me: …Fine. Years apart and this guy’s sleaze game is just as good as ever.

The nurse at my side wore a mask and squinted like she was smiling at me—I suspected she was laughing, though I had no proof.

He fixed one cavity and it took him a full three hours.

At the end he rubbed his lower back and put the tools down. "Done. I fixed it this time—my back’s about shot."

I gritted my teeth and climbed down from the dental chair, scheming the whole way home about how to get one back.

He couldn’t hog all the perks forever.

Ben—my childhood friend—walked me out himself.

Just as the elevator doors were opening, I said to him, "Your skills aren’t as good as your dad’s."

The elevator opened slowly.

The face of the man I was comparing to Ben grew clearer with every inch the doors slid apart.

Me: …Ben: …Help—how do I recover when my playboy banter with Ben gets overheard by the elder involved?

Uncle Carter looked at me, smiling. "What, did Luke hurt you?"

I was mortified enough to want to dig a whole mansion-sized hole and hide in it. Then he stabbed me with another comment.

"It’s fine—come by tomorrow. Mrs. Carter will make you something good to help you recover."

I swear Ben’s talent for making wild claims might be hereditary.

Like father like son.

2

Luke Carter and I are the textbook childhood sweethearts, except he prefers a different phrase to describe us.

"Pant-sharing buddies."

Back when we were little, I’d treat his living room like a restroom—every visit ended with me peeing everywhere.

Over time, every pair of open-crotch pants Luke owned carried my mark.

After classmates learned about my dark history, whenever anyone asked if I was Luke’s sister, Ben would answer with absolute conviction.

"This is my bro I can squeeze into the same pants with."

With that deadpan line he’d stomp out the spark of my elementary crush, snuff out my awkward middle-school longing, and kill any high-school flirting before it formed.

It wasn’t until I went abroad for a study abroad semester that I finally escaped Luke’s clutches—at least temporarily.

When I returned home from overseas, the first thing my mom said wasn’t "Honey, you lost weight."

It was: "Are your toothaches back? Go see your Uncle Carter at the clinic."

Luke used the excuse of fixing my tooth like a royal decree, and mapped out my entire week.

He even used "convenient for treatment" as cover to turn me into the clinic’s temporary gofer.

Just gofer work. No pay.

Best part: he looked at me like, "You’re so lucky," as if I was being handed a prize.

All I wanted to say was: Do you want this good fortune or not?

But Maya at the front desk was watching with her friendly smile, so I chickened out.

Luke had always been popular with girls—since elementary school, girls would hand him notes after class. By high school, it only escalated.

From folded paper cranes to snack gifts, it never stopped.

What pissed me off most: he never kept any of it—he made me collect it for him.

Those girls’ looks toward me were interesting. They wanted to shred me alive but couldn’t afford to offend me. So they’d be all sweet.

All of their love letters passed through my hands.

Whether any note made it onto Luke’s desk was my call alone.

He even said any letter I rejected he wouldn’t even bother opening.

That made the girls hate me even more.

College didn’t stop it.

He actually put my QQ number in his profile status with the caption:

"All love letters sent from this account only will be accepted."

I couldn’t ask him about it. I was used to being interrogated—he claimed he couldn’t live without me.

I thought study abroad would give me a little peace and quiet, but coming home just dumped me straight into his orbit.

Luke draped my shoulders and solemnly entrusted me to the front desk.

Of course, he announced our "pants-sharing" relationship for good measure.

Maya showed me the computer basics with a smile, then promptly assigned me to be Luke’s assistant.

3

What I didn’t expect was that my first client would be a guy who looked polished but was actually kind of wild.

Polished because he wore a pair of gold-rimmed glasses that screamed "wolf in a suit."

Wild because he sat down and opened a takeout box.

Inside was a dripping, whole tooth.

He said he’d lost it in a fight the day before, that Google said there’s a chance to reattach within twelve hours—was there anything we could do?

In the end, I sent him into Luke’s treatment room and slipped out.

When he came out looking miserable, I quickly added him on WeChat as a follow-up move.

Smooth as a pro.

As an assistant, staying cozy with clients is part of the job.

He accepted instantly.

No idea what Luke told him, but the guy paid up like it was nothing. He loaded a three-thousand-dollar deposit onto his account.

He also got a pile of freebies—from toothpaste to a clinic-branded pillow.

I respectfully walked the client out to the elevator.

Once inside, he beckoned me over with a curl of his finger.

I skittered across to see what he wanted.

Simple request: could I hold his bag? Both his hands were full and he couldn’t press the elevator button.

So I took the bag through the half-open doors, and saw him press "close."

As the elevator shut, he flashed his phone at me—mouthing clear as day:

"Sent you a friend request. I’ll message you on WeChat."

I stood there holding his freebies, bewildered, nodding at the closing doors.

When I turned, Luke’s face was all black.

"Our clinic doesn’t need to mooch off free gifts."

Me: ???

Was he saying I was the one scrounging freebies from clients?!

4

Luke wouldn’t hear any of my explanations. After dissing me, he went back to tending to other clients, not giving me another thought.

I slunk to the front desk and openly scrolled through Moments to kill time.

3K client [Tooth implant]: Like this Moments post and get a chance at a free live cake-making session by a top pastry chef—one winner.

3K client [Tooth implant]: My friend’s shop needs one more like to qualify for a giveaway—can you help me out?

I’d heard of that artisan patisserie—an award-winning pastry chef sometimes comes from Europe for special events. The owner posts perks only on Moments.

Times and prizes are random. All depends on the chef’s mood.

As a total sweets addict, free loot like that was irresistible.

I double-tapped then screenshot the Moments for him.

3K client [Tooth implant]: I’ll tell you if you win.

Me: Great!

Normally I’m not lucky with these giveaways, but around closing time the toothless guy sent me a screenshot.

The grand prize winner? My WeChat name.

"Live pastry experience"—every word was taunting my fragile willpower.

The cake wasn’t the issue—Luke was.

He forbade me from having sweets.

Between a lifelong friend and a free top-tier cake, I chose… the cake.

Childhood buddies are everywhere; free cakes are rare.

I schemed to be clever. I booked a six o’clock dental appointment for a patient with Luke, told Maya I’d be out, silenced my phone, and slipped away.

Time it right and the cake would be mine.

5

Halfway there, Luke messaged asking why I wasn’t waiting for him after work. I didn’t even open the chat.

If he tried to guilt me later, I could always blame it on not seeing the message.

The patisserie was tucked in an office tower and a little tricky to find. After wandering a couple rounds, I located the elevator.

When the door opened, I froze.

To my surprise, the toothless guy was holding the door—looking neat in white.

His shirt buttoned at the top, giving off a weirdly ascetic vibe.

I was confused.

He seemed completely unbothered and casually held the door wider for me. "You made it?"

I answered reflexively, "Yeah."

For some reason, when the owner handed me the voucher, his look at me felt a little mournful.

"To redeem, you need to follow, post a Moments share, and leave a positive review on Meituan and favorite the shop."

I handed over my phone and let him do the whole thing. Likes, favorites, and a positive review—they could write whatever.

The toothless guy strolled over and posed for a photo with my cake.

It must’ve been good timing—there was only one customer in the shop: me.

The "live top-tier pastry" experience meant the chef would make a cake from scratch in front of you.

And the chef was…the toothless guy?!

To be fair, he was actually talented. He turned a simple cake into something with artful presence.

But when he reached for matcha powder on the top shelf, he apparently strained his arm and…a little red stain appeared on his white shirt.

At first I thought it was just food coloring. But the stain spread.

The owner asked slowly, "You okay?"

He shifted, shrugged, and grunted, "Not fatal."

Me: …"Not fatal" doesn’t help my conscience, man. Were you planning for me to eat a blood-stained cake?

So I suggested, "Why not bandage it up first?"

Both men simultaneously turned to look at me.

"Can you?" they asked in unison.

Honestly, I couldn’t.

But the toothless guy shut down my escape route quickly. "A dental clinic is still medical—can you help?"

Me: …Should I tell him that even if it’s a dental clinic, a front-desk worker doesn’t automatically have a medical license?!

But he didn’t give me a chance to refuse. He pulled me toward the back office.

Alcohol, cotton swabs, gauze—everything was laid out on the desk.

I even started to wonder if this patisserie was actually some kind of shady place.

Before I could fully process that thought, a smooth, completely bare back flashed before my eyes and nearly blinded me.

Seeing the pile of cotton and gauze on the table and then looking at the wound on his back, I almost burst into tears.

I faint at the sight of blood—always have since I was little…

Shaking, I dipped a cotton swab in alcohol and poked it at his wound.

The guy’s spine went rigid.

Just as I was about to poke a second time, the office door was kicked open so hard it rattled the whole room.

Then another kick. Then another. A fourth.

The guy muttered under his breath, grabbed an ashtray off the table, and charged toward the door.

If I heard right, he said, “How dare they actually come here.”

But when the door swung agape, he froze again.

Because standing in the doorway was Luke Carter.

He had a broomstick in his hand.

Behind him trudged the patisserie owner, looking like he’d been given up on by hope itself.

I swear on my life that the instant I saw Luke, my first impulse was to crawl under the desk and convince myself he hadn’t seen me.

I was trying so hard to be hidden—how did he find us?

But clearly you can’t reason with a man who’s ready to pick a fight.

I had no idea why Luke was holding a broom, but the moment the door opened his stick flew straight at the toothless guy’s forehead.

He swung and shouted, “Scoundrel.”

It turned out that a lifetime in an ivory tower doesn’t necessarily prepare you for street fights. Still, Luke charging like that wasn’t exactly seasoned fighter material compared to a guy who’d already knocked his own tooth out.

The other man even had the composure to smirk, “Do dental clinics do house calls now?”

I: …Luke walked around the guy and headed straight for me.

I reflexively shoved the cotton swab into his hand.

“I faint at the sight of blood—you’re supposed to do it.”

For a second, Luke looked stunned.

He glanced at my neat outfit, then at the gauze and alcohol on the table, then at the half-naked guy standing in the doorway.

Then he finally understood. “You’re actually treating him?”

I nodded like a good kid.

What else was there to do?

The owner looked exasperated, shrugged at the toothless guy as if to say, “I tried, do what you want.”

Luke’s gaze toward the patient softened with something like sympathy.

He even waved him over, “Come here. I’ll do it.”

The guy pointed at me and said, “I want her to do it.”

Language matters—say “treat the wound,” don’t skip the medicine part. That little character makes a difference.

In the end, under Luke’s silent, watchful glare, I triumphantly poured half a bottle of alcohol on the man’s wound.

I wrapped his chest tight with three whole rolls of gauze, then carefully tied a butterfly knot at the front.

Luke’s mouth twitched as he hauled me out of the office.

Just before the door closed, the guy complimented my handiwork.

“Why didn’t you reply to my messages?”

As soon as we hit the stairs, Luke fired off the quintessential interrogation.

Me: ????

Wasn’t that obvious? If I’d answered him, would I even have come?

I still hadn’t had a chance to ask how he found me.

Luke jabbed a finger at my forehead.

“You posted on Moments that you won something and the shop name was plastered all over it. How was I supposed to not find you?”

Got it. Next time I’ll be subtler.

He flicked my forehead again.

“Use your head next time—don’t lock yourself in a room with sketchy people. It’s easy for things to be misconstrued.”

Me: …Only your mind would go straight to those nasty places.

But when it came to Luke, my confidence always seemed to shrink a little.

I suspect childhood shadows left an indelible mark—Luke had always been “that other kid” in my family’s stories, and questioning him felt wrong no matter what.

Heavy footsteps thudded behind us. The toothless guy stomped up with a box in hand and planted himself directly in front of me.

Luke moved fast and put himself between us, forcing me to tilt my head out to see.

The guy shoved the box into my hands. “You left your stuff.”

Luke reached to take it, but the man slammed his hand down on it. “I brought it for her—none of your business.”

For a moment, if looks could spark electricity, there was definitely a little current between the two men.

It made me suddenly wonder about all those years Luke refused letters—was there some hidden reason? Could he… be into men?

Because the way he and that other guy looked at each other felt oddly intimate.

The man popped the box open, pressed a spoon into my hand. “Eat it. Right here.”

Then, glancing at Luke, he added, “Once it’s out of my sight, it won’t be safe.”

Inside the box was a slice of cake, arranged perfectly. The cream smelled rich; the cake’s sweetness teased my nose. Bright strawberries and golden mangoes stole the scene.

Luke’s temper flared as if set on high.

Two grown men arguing over whether eating sweets would cause cavities—classic.

Luke insisted letting me take one bite would be an affront to his professional standards. The other guy argued that if I didn’t take even one bite, that would be an insult to his craft.

They both turned to me at the same time and said the exact same thing.

“You decide.”

Cradling the box in the sweltering summer air, I shivered. Eat or not—that was the question.

Pressed between their clashing wills, I offered a compromise.

I accepted the cake, took a single bite now, and would take the rest home.

The moment that bite hit my tongue, it felt like a pure current of clarity shot from my soles to the top of my head, like some energy channel opening inside me.

In plain terms: the cake melted, it was richly layered, delicate and light.

To be blunt: it was outrageously delicious.

I swear on my future offspring, cakes of this caliber are so rare I can count how many I’ve had on one hand.

And this flavor—it nagged at my memory. I felt certain I’d had it somewhere before.

So I made what felt like the boldest decision since knowing Luke: face be damned, what’s in your stomach is what counts.

Luke went green.

He pulled me along while trying to snatch the cake.

No way. Not even for all the world—this slice stays with me.

The man left with one last parting line, “A forced fruit tastes sour,” then sauntered off.

That sentence threw Luke into volcanic rage. It exploded over his face like a real mushroom cloud.

“Is it that good?”

I nodded like I was risking my life.

“Why don’t you try it?”

His gaze was heavy.

“You want me to try it?”

I shivered.

Luke grabbed me, pinned me to the wall, towering over me.

“Is that guy so important that you can’t even throw away a cake he gave you?”

I raised the cake, using it as a barrier between his face and mine, and put my body between us as well.

“A thing like this is fate—rare and not to be missed.”

I meant the cake.

But Luke misinterpreted it.

Before I could clarify, his fist brushed my ear and smacked into the wall.

“Fate?”

“Destiny?”

“Not to be missed?”

The cake suspended between us flew in a perfect arc and hit the ground with a sickening splatter, shattering into crumbs.

My heart felt exactly like that cake—smashed into pieces.

Luke glared at me through clenched teeth. “Try being his ‘destiny’ then.”

I chickened out. I couldn’t meet the look in his eyes. So I planted myself there stubbornly, refusing to move so I could die with that cake if I had to.

In the end he practically hoisted me onto his back and carried me off.

Under the streetlights, our shadows stretched and merged—some parts overlapping, some parts separate.

It looked like we were one silhouette, but not completely indistinguishable—just like our relationship.

We looked like we could share pants, but what he actually thought of me? I had no idea.

Every time I started to feel something, he’d douse me in cold water to make the boundaries clear.

Luke carried me all the way to the base of my building—just like when we were kids and he’d walk me to the stair landing, never willing to go another step.

He stepped back, then turned and looked at me standing there, frozen.

“That guy’s not a good person. Don’t hang out with him. I’ll contact Karen about the business stuff—you don’t need to worry.”

I paused, then realized who he was talking about.

Instinct made me defend the man. “How do you know he’s not a good person? He just lost a tooth—you’re a dentist, not a fortune teller.”

Luke hugged my shoulders and pressed my head into his chest.

His voice came muffled from his ribs, heavy as a hammer that made my ears ring.

Maybe the wind was too loud tonight and I was hallucinating, because what I heard him say was: “Don’t make me worry. I don’t like seeing you with him.”

All night I turned Luke’s words over and over in my head.

Was he jealous that I was with that guy? Or was he saying it because he felt responsible toward me—because we’d known each other since childhood—and he didn’t want me to get hurt?

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